Wednesday, July 3, 2013

IWSG - Backward motivation


I love writing.  I love creating and designing and, frankly, being impressed and falling in love with my creations.

But lately, that's not what's inspired me to write.

I work a lot.  My full time job is IT professional at a tech school.  My part time job is at a kayak business on the Broad River, hauling kayaks around for 10-12 hours in the Georgia sun.
(This isn't including playing bass in a band or fixing friends' computers on the side.  Those don't happen frequently enough to wear at me.)

Both jobs have their perks.
At the best of times I like both jobs, or at least tolerate them. Most of the time they kind of balance one another out.  Just when I'm tired of using my brains all day, tucking my shirt in and being polite, Friday comes around and I'm at the river in shorts only, screaming and laughing, driving a short bus down a dirt road with a trailer full of kayaks, going 40 mph, missing trees by the span of a flea's knees.  Then, just when I'm sick of hauling kayaks around, sweating in the dirt, Monday comes and I'm sitting in the quiet of my office in the AC.

But at the worst of times, I hate my jobs.  And it's this hate that has directed by butt to chair more than once to write and write and write until my fingers ache and the heat of the laptop boils the blood in my legs.  It's at these times that desperation seeps into my work, for better or worse, and I write like I have no choice.  This is, of course, because I have no choice.

Is this healthy motivation?  Is my love of writing simply the product of my hatred of traditional work and schedule?  Are you, too, motivated by what chases you and not what you chase?? 

I'm curious to know.

18 comments:

  1. A lot of writers are motivated by a desire to ditch the day job. (And in your case, weekend job as well. If I see a bus full of kayaks zooming down the path, I'm getting out of your way.) If it motivates you, then write!
    I like my job enough that I don't want to write full time. Play music full time, maybe! But with retirement a dozen years away (or less) I plan on sticking it out.

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    1. I don't blame you! I get a little carried away in those buses at times!
      I envy you having an enjoyable job... AND being that close to retirement!

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  2. I definitely sympathize with this. In my case, I know I'd always WRITE--but I'm not sure I'd have quite the same drive to publish if the siding wasn't falling off my house, or if I didn't have a few sets of braces to look forward to in my children's future. ;)

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    1. That's what I call real-world motivation, not just passing fancy. I, too, have a set of braces in my son's future. :(

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  3. I currently hate my job and I write to try and escape that reality. I just work to pay the bills. It is okay to look at writing as a way to get away from the bad day jobs. At least I think so, as that is what I do too.

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    1. I agree. And writing is definitely a release / escape from all the stuff that irks me daily.

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  4. I don't know if it's healthy, but I think it's normal to hate your job sometimes!

    Allison (Geek Banter)

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    1. Well, I've never claimed to be the model of healthiness.
      ;)

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  5. No job is perfect. I'm a self-employed business owner and there are days it drives me crazy. If it motivates you, that's what matters.

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  6. I don't think that's it. Your writing comes from a place void of negative or positive stimulation. You write to create...not to react. :)

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    1. Very well said. And I've never noticed the similarities between the words create and react...
      This has deep-quote potential!

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  7. Hey David! Oh man I did 2 jobs for a long time too. I worked office job during the day and bartended at night and not cuz I loved customer service. lol
    Your kayak job sounds like a nice way to blow off steam. But writing is one of those creative outlets that's healing in so many ways. It gives me hope that maybe one day I wont have to work for The Man and can be free to express myself and make money doing it. Plus it's just fun getting wrapped up in it. :D

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    1. Yes yes and yes. I've bartended as well. I don't miss those hours!

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  8. For me it is a bit different. Still I would say as long as you love writing then what ever motivates you is good. I have had that moment in my life though and knew certain types of work were not for me. I pursue my dream and my dream pursues me...if that makes any sense.

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    1. Makes total sense, bro. I feel the same. If I didn't love it, I'd stop writing.

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  9. I travel a lot for my job, so I get worn out. Plus I have 3 kiddos, so my spare time is scarce. I write because I really want to. Passion is passion, no matter where it comes from.

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