I make songs... all instrumental but songs nonetheless.
I make them on my computer with programming software.
I have been known to charge money for interested buyers.
Is this by definition composing? Writing? Making? I'm not one to judge. But this is a hobby of mine which occasionally borders on a 'dream'... to be a soundtrack producer. For vid games or shows or movies or commercials.
The problem is, I care about each song I write and if I don't it comes out flat and unemotional. To write songs, I need to be inspired, where-as to write words, I just need to sit down and do it.
Inspiration is a fleeting thing and for me, it comes at the most unexpected times. If I'm struggling to finish a song and nothing is forth coming, I am a wreck. Don't look at me funny or I might kill you where you sit / stand. When I finally come up with a breakthrough it may bring tears to my eyes. Then I listen to the song over and over on every medium (phone speakers, office speakers w sub, truck, car, headphones, earbuds) and determine what levels could be changed, etc.
My point is, it is a stressful thing!! To make music on a deadline or for a project!
I don't know if that's how I want to grow old and ripe; swinging from one stress-vine to the next!
Writing is different. If I get stuck, I don't get violent tendencies, I get out of the house and into the woods. Alone preferably (or at least with Jax). Eventually I have a breakthrough. Then it is equally satisfying and in the writing process, it too can bring tears to my eyes. (now you know I'm a big wuss)
Music for me comes from emotion. Or it fails. Emotion you can't force.
Stories come from my imagination.
I haven't yet been in a position where I had to write on a deadline but now that I think about it, I imagine it is quite stressful as well.
This blog doesn't necessarily have a point... But it has been some what therapeutic for me.
Oh, check in my list of links to hear my tunes on soundcloud (it's on the left unless I've moved it)